outward bound singapore

as sly as a fox, as strong as an ox
as fast as a hare, as brave as a bear
as free as a bird, as neat as a word
as quite as a mouse, as big as a house

~ everything at once, lenka

 

hey hey hey, long time no blog! 

i'm finally brushing the dust from this space and updating hahaha.

obviously as you can tell from the title, i'm going to be talking about my outward bound experience! 

 

 

stuff!!!

oh man, i am so sorry i haven't updated in like a week!
i got caught up in schoolwork and sc duties so i haven't been very free the first few days of school!

also i think i lost the wedding photos so unfortunately i don't think there'll be a continuation to my wedding post. :(

i'll blog about something else soon, till then!

xoxo

feelings

rant under cut

mwah.

so don't stress,
don't cry,
we don't need no wings to fly,
just take my hand.
- as long as you love me, justin bieber

hello! i'm back again hahaha. i major upgrade my blog wtf damn tired of the cloud cloud whatever lol. it's like damn boring somemore i use firefox also cannot see the background!!!

so i guess my new blog theme is like the japanese fairy kei brand SPANK! it's an actual brand ok don't come laugh at me, i'll beat u up. another long post so i'll put it under cut

sweet dreams, timaeus.

i never shall forget the night i made six rappers run, 

although i didn't have a knife, a blackjack, or a gun.

i proved myself a hero of a very high degree, 

i ran for home and six of them were running after me! 

- i'm a member of the midnight crew 

hey sup sup sup. 

homestuck released another volume of great music like wow??? wow. volume 9 is like a mix of emotions haha i also dunno what to feel because it's just like a mix of new characters and meenah and roxy giving a pumpkin to someone and ar and john, jade and ds ghOST BUSTING AND WOW CUTIES??? anyway you should listen to volume 9 rn.

i also dunno what i wanna blog about today hahahaha i just wanna update this space from gross feelings lol. 

i'm not feeling better actually i feel like shit but let's not go there aight???? hahhhhhhh. 

so hey let's look at photos from when my relatives decided to pay a visit. see you at the end!

edit: put it under a cut

13 again.

more dry stuff i didn't cover under the cut.

14.

hello, long time no update haha.

well anyway, i think a lot of things have happened and obviously i'm too lazy to go through all of them so i guess i'll just... skim through?

lsp was on the first week of the june holidays! i was late on the first day then kena paiseh infront of everyone hahaha. but it was honestly quite okay and i enjoyed learning. i guess maybe it's because i concentrate better with lesser people in the class? whatever, i learned how to factorize properly that's the important part!!!!! hahhhhh.

so ya anyway, i lepak at home for a bit before my brain kick into gear again... i just felt like a loser y'know, like going back to lsp classes all. the sad thing here is that i actually can study, i just choose not to. so i got really really worried about the future like what am i going to do? i still haven't decided on whether i'm going to take art or sciences. will i pass my classes? i'm failing three classes as i type this. will i get accepted into the school i want to go in when i graduate? will i even pass my o's? what if i end up a deadbeat with a 8 - 10 job at a supermarket with a prom night baby and a drunkard for a husband? i know it's still a little too early to think of all this but i'm 14 now, and a friend of mine is already working for his family etc. i don't know, i just feel really really behind.

thus i decided to take a break from tumblring all that.. i really miss all my friends online but i don't think i know how to socialize properly in real life anymore, man.

i don't know, i'm just confused about a whole lot of things haha...

on to better things!

today was my 14th birthday!

i spent it over at diane and pauline's house with winna, miguel, haziqah and denise 'watching' glee haha. more like me and diane watching and flaming rachel berry while the others jamming in the room! but hey, it was fun anyway! we ate noodles and made a mess of the house but i finished half of season 1. man, rachel is just fucking dumb okay, finn brought her bowling and she asked "do i have to put my fingers into the holes (of the bowling ball)?" what the hell of course la!!!!!!!! ugh i just don't like her ok.

kurt is really really cute though omfg his face is really pale but he has rosy cheeks omfg omfg piss on me man. finn and kurt would actually make a cute couple though??? ok i'll shut up about glee now.

i got called to clementi for dinner by my parents around 5+ and i met with my childhood friend haaaaaaaaahhhhhh. he's fucking tall la!!!!! like 170 or taller. man why am i still so short!!

but yeah i think that's all for today? it's generally been an okay day but i can't help but point out the differences to myself haha.

goodnight and thanks for all the birthday wishes on my facebook/twitter/whatever.

stuff i wanna cos ubububu

poop this is poop
this is just like
something to get u all excited
then u guys realize its not an actual post
and u start crying
heheheheheh

but anyway on 2 the goods;

homestuck

• john egbert
  → wise suit
  → fancy dreamers!!!!!!
  → god tier
  → military version
• jade harley
  → god tier
  → dead shuffle *hahahahaha oh my god this is really difficult her fucking skirt

puella magi madoka magica

• homura akemi
  → magical girl vers *any1 has links to her shield tho???????

kuroshitsuji

• ciel phantomhive
  → robin
  → ciel in wonderland
  → noah's ark circus
  → vol VI cover
  → strawberry version 
• alois trancy
  → default
  → alois in wonderland
  → party outfit

vocaloid

• kagamine len
  → setsugetsuka
  → poker face

karnival

• nai
  → vol 1 inside cover
  → vol 2 inside cover

and that's all for nOW HAHAHAHAHA god like i'll ever have enough money hello

ATTENTION ALL!!!!!!!

S.S. DIRKJAKE IS GOING TO SINK SOON. 

ALL ARMS ON DECK. 

CANONS AT THE READY? 

AIGHT, FIRE INTO THE DISTANCE! 

MAKE SURE WE HIT S.S. JAKEJANE! 

SINK THE ENEMY SHIP!!!!!!

DARK TIMES AHEAD IF WE DON'T SUCCEED!

god i am so sorry but i hate jane so much she's boring and ugh i can't and someone is going to bash me for this ugh i am really sorry but i just cannot bring myself to like jane ok

also i can't with dirkroxy it's like daverose and i dunno it just feels weird ok leave me alone

i'm not saying u can't ship it but
yeah i'm sorry it's the internet no one gives a shit

again i'm sorry if i offended u i really am

on another note;

happy valentines day!!!!!!

ps
[11:37:20] RC: dIRK STOP BEING A DORK CONFESS TO JAKE!!!!!!!!

[11:37:23] RC: KISS THE BOY.

[11:37:33] RC: COME ON HUSSIE IT'S CALENTINES U CAN'T DO THIS.

[11:37:48] RC: calentines: a day where everyone smothers some hot loving on lil cal

[11:37:50] RC: its legit now

pss it's on jake's bday bcos then dirk feels lonely so he loves on cal instead

stay in school, don't do drugs & don't watch an anime called Boku!

Make me your radio, 

& turn me up when you feel low, 

This melody was meant for you,

So sing along to my stereo.

- Stereo Hearts, Gym Class Heroes

ps u shud click it!!!!

Hi!!! Sorry I haven't blogged in like, a month hahaha.

super wordy btw, just technically really busy with a lot of stuff!

ie: 

• being SC under prob8ion!!!!!
  god i remember the first meeting i woke up l8 hahaha. wanted to take bus to school then figured that i'd probably be assbutts late so i got my dad to send me instead. ended up being late anyway cause i went to buy food at the canteen. walao i ask clarice she sit there tweet sia.
  but n/m they forgave us cause it was our first time but yeah!!!!! second meeting i was there at like 6:55 lmao. 
  it was really interesting and i felt really important and stuff though!!! it was cool.
• homestuck HOMEWORK!!!!!
  i have so much to do everyday it's not even a joke. i can't even go on tumblr as much anymore sighs. i queue stuff on sundays so my blog won't be all stagnant during the week though!
  but anw back to homework. i really, really don't understand mdm wong's teaching. like goddamn i'm not stupid or anything but i really don't get what she's trying to say??? and i collected so many hot cross buns alr cause i really dunno how to deal w maths anymore i'm just giving up.
  except i can't. bcos maths is one of the subjects i need to take the course i want in poly!!!!
  but ye, that's p much it for schoolwork and stuff!
• trainings........................
  ah i have trainings on monday, tuesday, wednesday and friday now fml. it's really tiring though and i hardly have enough time for my schoolwork. i cannot do this!!!!!!! i am so stressed i feel like i want to die, in a literal sense. i just want to die, anyway.
  but goddamn i am so pressured everywhere and i know i sound like a brat saying this and u all will hate me but i can't help it? i really really really h8 being forced to do things and i end up doing the opposite instead just to rebel against you. so. yeah.

•  feelings!!!!!!!!!!!
  
  dear god, please stop making my, and the other conflicted people around me's lives difficult. i know i've sinned a lot, and i don't go to church, but i promise i'll try my best to improve. but please, please, at least help me in this situation a little bit, just give me a gentle nudge to what i should do, where i should go.
  because if this doesn't stop anytime soon, i feel like i am going to end it all my way. i am this close to just breaking down and giving up. i know i'm probably p lucky already, but i don't feel it. so please, just this one time, please help me god.
  o lord, help us to remember you in everything we do today, our lady of assumption, pray for us. st louis marie de montfort, pray for us. in the name of the father, son and the holy spirit.
  amen.
  yeah, hahaha. i really don't feel the need to continue living anymore? i don't see a future for myself etc. but i took 3imz's advice and went to talk to someone about it, in this case ms amanda yew. she was wonderful, though. ( up until the point where she told me that being bi was just a phase lol fuck u )( o k jk i luv u no homo more bromo ) and she advised me a gr8 deal!!!! and it helped, kinda hahaha. sandra was there too and aaaaaaaa she was wonderful and didn't laugh or anything too haha. and i just got so overwhelmed with emotions i wanted to cry but i held it in goddamn.
  anw ms yew told me that people out there probably cared and stuff so!!!!!! i shouldn't kill myself and hahaha. then she posed a question to me; 
  what if bethanie killed herself? how would you feel?
  wow ok first of i would take her dead body and beat her with a dang stick okay u fucker y did u pangseh me nb. but then i would probably cry and get angry again bcos wow rude????? and i dunno how to explain it but ye. so please, please please don't kill yourself, people out there care, i promise. and if you think there's no one, i'll care. let's face it, you probably look like shit ( keeping it real here ) but ur friends luv u and still talk to u so that proves something! so live like there's no tmrw baby. i went to talk to the proper counselor and it was sweet and cool and stuff but i won't elabor8 bcos that shit is priv8!!!!!!!! and i really still haven't posted my mail yet hahahhaha fuck i just really don't have the time ok leave me aLONE. i'm doing it like tomorrow!!!!!!
  
  also wow i am so done with thinking of shitstains giving each other blowjobs in dang florida. 
  yeah i'm saying this here. i don't even cARE IF U READ THIS??? god. 
  i'm just really jealous and i love you okay. giod sldkfjs leave me alone w my feelings ( or u can join me )
  
  andddd yeah, that's p much it i guess??? oh yeah i cut my hair!!!!
  
  

  

  
  

  

  
  

  hahahahaha yeah, okay. bye!!!!!!! wish me luck for the whole of next week. luv u all <3
  
  

  [10:10:42] AG: I'm not that much of an evil person. 

  [10:10:51] AG: To just forget a8out some8ody. 

  [10:10:56] AG: Especially you.

新年快乐!!!!!!!!

恭喜发财
紅包拿來

没有红包

给你 black eye!

hahaha omg. i know this is super late la, but w/e, at least i made a post about it right!
anyway, image heavy under the cut.
how i spent my C N Y!

bloop.

I was thinking about you, 

Thinking about me,
Thinking about us,
What we gonna' be.
- Just a Dream, Nelly 

haha oh man hello!!!

sorry i neh upd8 for the weekend, i was lazy yep.
more stuff under the cut! (◡‿◡✿)

hmm just some thoughts.

day 17 - i hate getting mad cause i know right after that i’m going to get sad and mopey.

hi 

yep tru fax right there

a little after i got dumped like uncountable times on trollmegle ( ngl i felt like i did p ok today compared to yesterday, or this dave is just a fucking douche. ) i got really sad and started to be like:

"maybe i am a really shitty john/jake/roxy."

"maybe they don't want nsfw!"

"maybe i just suck."


and idk, i just feel really insecure about it. like, i feel like rping is one of the few good things i actually excel in, and if i lose this skill i'll just fall into this dark abyss of nothingness. :/

idk, maybe is just me being really lame and stupid. but idk, i just... can't help feeling that way.

is this like a gemini moodswing thing shit??? if it is then being a gemini sucks major horses' ass.

another point, i really really hope i haven't drifted too far from the people i met last year during the holidays, they were a really fun bunch of people to be around and, fuck, i really miss them so much.

like, i miss them possibly even more than 1/1. sighs.

i miss having actual friends that you can come clean to and talk about things you like together.

if you're one of those people, i love you, i really do.

last thing, ugh so what if i watch porn oh my god i have had it with people being all shocked, guys can watch girls cannot la? that's pretty sexist eh. :/

i guess i'm gonna go to bed now, school tomorrow, so goodnight! <3

You're my kryptonite.

roses are red
violets are blue
shit im fucking high
 how the fuck are you???

 

hello! how the fuck are you??? heheh just kidding.

school starts tomorrow again! oh gosh, third week already! so fast, i have NO IDEA what to feel about this. half of me is happy that this horrible year is gonna be over soon, and the other half is really scared cause i'm gonna be taking my o levels soon.

yeah anyway, school again, geog 4 periods eh! gonna die. somemore must carry deadly combo of gi + laptop! lucky my bag gonna empty tmr, left my school books under the bed, gonna get the locker key from molly so i can leave my gi in the dojo! sighs, then must buy vol 2 science tomorrow cause farmer wang wanna use wtf. maybe i'll borrow from gary or clarice lmao. must remember to print DnT work in the MRL too! geog also but eh. sighs mr yong confirm gonna kill me one, last week i was way too busy to print.

trained on tuesday, wednesday, friday and saturday to recruit sec ones! oh my gosh they were way cuties. except for some. some are rude butts!!!! especially this year's 1/1. i last year seriously not this rude one lor please! sighs. anyway trained after a damn long time results in cramps, and thanks to the combo of 2.4 and training my muscles seriously screaming at me rn. -.- 

but i'm training again tomorrow!!!!!! please more sec ones leh, we need more bois desu. 

oh yeah then after training on monday winna, alex, samuel and i stayed back to talk about bunny life HAHAHAHAHA mad funny la we ended up staying till like 7. got my dad to fetch me home cause i needed to pee and this hobo was masturb8ing infront of me i swear.

shall end this blog post soon. :BBB 

ok anyway i slept for 19 hours cause i was damn tired after CCA open house, but it was fun! got praised by molly somemore eh hehehe. then i woke up to go on trollmegle but people kept dumping me, but it was down after awhile sighs. it was up and down for the rest of the day but i think it's p stable now! but if it gets down again try msparp.com! pretty cool too ehheheh. 

ok shall go now! eating pizza for supper and waiting for this kawaii baby to reply heheheh.

everytime dave talks about his girl fans, or who he's just boned in a back alley, my chest tightens.

it becomes worse when he bursts into detailed paragraphs of what he does to her. every single moan, turn of head, every touch on his body.

i sit there and scroll through our pesterchum window, staring at the red texted words as paragraph after paragraph turns up.

sometimes i imagine myself instead of her, and i cross my legs and try not to think of the growing tent in my pants.

sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't.

it got worse when dad asked me to attend school. of course i had to end up with a hot girl who read sbahj!

but she was more accepting than the rest of my class, so i rolled with it.

i didn't think much of it when i told dave, of course. desperate to let him know i scored a chick for once, i told him.

i realized my mistake when he started showing interest in her, miranda, and foolishly i gave him her facebook. hahaha, naive right?

dave checked up her number in the phonebook, and i groaned inwardly.

feeble attempts at trying to get him to stop didn't work, and i was pointedly ignored with a "let me show you how it works egbert."

i sat back in my chair, defeated, and waited for him to come back.

excuse the singlish and profanities (◡‿◡✿)

AIYA U SHUDDUP LA JOHN BEING NOT A HOMOSEXUAL IS NOT FUCKING CANON.
NEITHER IS HIM BEING A HOMOSEXUAL.
NOTHING IS FUCKING CONFIRMED SO U CAN SHUT THE FUCK UP AND SUCK YOUR OWN DICK.
He said it like ONCE to karkat in canon, A GUY WHO HE HAD NEVER MET BEFORE and was rude BUT WAS HITTING ON HIM.
HOW WOULD U KNOW HE’S NOT USING IT AS AN EXCUSE HUH. U JOHN EGBERT AH????? NO RIGHT? U HUSSIE AH? NO. SO STFU.
STFU AND LET ME HAVE MY KAWAII BOYS IN LUV LA.
ok shall eat now sighs that was tiring. (づ￣ ³￣)づ

butterfly kisses.

i automatically assume everyone dislikes me unless every individual states otherwise which means you have to tell me yourself that you actually enjoy my presence in order for me to believe that you don’t dislike me how difficult is it to understand that

- aly

 gpoy me, lol. 

ok hi!!!!

hi i'm back to annoy you lol. technically it's saturday = weekends already so stfu. Yeeeee first week of school is over, wasn't really that bad woaAAaaaAAAh. Ya, not really that bad, but it's really more stressful now, you can tell. More homework, more rush, needa learn more before we take exams, streaming year bros, must buck up already ehh. i still wanna ms lee and mr fok my teacher eh! ms wong also.
the new maths teacher go damn fast, like one day only teach two topics finish already wtf? yeeee and the english teacher newbie, no one listen to her hahahaha sighs. science teacher is mr wang, need i say more? no right? good.

really need to buck up already, don't wanna fail anything. shall write some goals here!!!!!

• English → A1 
• Maths → C6 or C4
• Chinese → D7!!! at least. 
• Science → B3
• Geography → B3
• D&T → B3
• MAP → A2
• Art → A1 or A2!!!

yeeeee let's work hard this year heh heh heh.
no but seriously, i really hope to get those marks. and be SC! Ms Cath say she put down my name for SC already heheh and somemore she say i was one of the first few people she think of! honored man. :B

anyway, moving on, hahaha, today is the start of sec one camp! this morning walk past their classes to look see look see a bit, then got this 1/2 boy come ask me how to take attendance omg, damn cute wtf? hahahahaha omg but the 1/1 super quiet like us last year eh! so cute, but i ask them open window they never?????? rude. ):< jk jk jk j kjkjk.


saw ryan, martin, yuxuan, and uhh jasmine in school today!! hehehh i was like "omg ryan should i say hi to him,," then he say "ya! go la, come follow me." then i neh go wtf i should've. but he said hi to me anyway la. hahahahah omg then i text yuxuan then he cannot guess it's me wtf like one whole day liao eh! still cannot guess. heh heh heh then spent like $7 at 7-11 on food, went to the nearby playground at beth's place to eat and nua for like one hour talking about stupid shit. speculating about what, gay seniors la, porn la, 11/11/11 la. hahaha all this nonsense. :B

anyway, came back and went on to trollmegle, like wtf only 3 people online? got karkat that was looking for sollux and i rp sol for him after the third time of bumnping into him or so, no offence but he was p ooc so i uh hahahaha y'know. then i tried jake english with a Di?? but also p ooc so i uh. finally got a good dave for my kawaii hammertime but he lost connection uuuuuuugh.

but yeah! hahahaha my life my choices omg. gonna sleep after i finish this blog post and some other things!

#afactaday - i get jealous really easily even if i don't know you that well, but i'm probably p attached to you for some reason or another.

p.s. yuxuan u should reply me back soon HAHAHA

sugoi like fuck

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(｀⌒´メ)凸
(♥ó㉨ò)ﾉ♡
ヽ(΄◞ิ౪◟ิ‵)ノ
♡ ～(^з^)-☆
ヽ(●-`‿´-)ノ ♥ ♥ ♥
∑(O_O；)
(◉ ^ ◉‵)

ヽ（´ー｀）
ლ(|||⌒εー|||)ლ
♪( ´‿｀)ノ
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☆~(ゝω・`)ノ
(*・ω・)ﾉ ☆.。.:*・
（*＾3＾）
(づ￣ ³￣)づ

best dave it is him.

yeeeeeeeeee headcanons

what if when the entire time dave and john were playing gay chicken with each other they were actually serious
but john is a dumbbutt so he’s like “o shit waht if he really likes me i can’t ruin his fUTURE.” when he was younger cause he genuinely thought Dave was cool when he was a young ~*~ fledgling ~*~ so he blurted “no m’not a homo” but now he kinda regrets that cause he sees how laaaaaame stributt is but actually p funny and hot so he wouldn’t mind being in a r/s with him heh.

and dave’s like too cool to break his coolkid mask to confess. and it’s just like “shit well damn i lost my chance he said no homo o well” and he ends up in this r/s w this guy that looks like john but just for the sex cause that guy rly looks like john and once during sex he said john’s name instead but the guy was like “k w/e” and dave was like “man sorry i can’t do this anymore” and he just jacks off to smuppets or some shit instead
and that’s why dave h8s those smuppets so much cause it reminds him of john and stuff.

and the whole time these two dumb boys are just like “shit he doesn’t like me.„” and “no homo„,” but they’re actually ttly in luv.

bonus!!!! bro gets rly mad when dave gets his uh all over the smuppets cause he has to wash them and shit BUT he totally understands cause y’kno idk jake and bro when he was younger he was like that too!!! and he gives dave advice all the time

and uhhh

i want to do a davejohn rp where john asks “dave can i suck you off?”
„„„„
i don’t know is that ooc……………………???
???
i don’t actually care though i just really„, wANT IT„„„„
wait no
and then dave gets all flustered when he asks that
like y’kno they’re just chilling w games soda and pizza etc
and john just springs that question while looking at the screen and chewing pizza
and dave

cutie dave

he just drops the controller and goes

“wait what john are you being serious here”

“mhmmmmm.”

“if this is a joke m’gonna hit you”

“it’s not a joke!”

“oh.”
“….”
“ok then go ahead”

omg
and u kno
after all their inbed shenanigans
dave just holds john close and nuzzles into his hair and says

“dude you sure that was your first time”
“are you calling me a slut or something dave?”
“no because that sucked”
“k i’m never doing it for you again.”
“no im kidding it was good do it again next time”

bUT JOHN doesn’t hear that because he’s snoring already and he was actually half asleep earlier omg……….

yeeeee m'gonna go shower now ahahaha
proper blog post during the weekends! <3

hit me with your best shot ヽ(΄◞ิ౪◟ิ‵)ノ

We must be swift as a coursing river, 

With all the force of a great typhoon,
With all the strength of a raging fire,
Mysterious as the dark side of,
The moon.

- I'll Make A Man out of You, Li Shang

hi!!!

school is later on in the day!

i still have nail polish on my nails and i haven’t bought any school books.
my life haaaaaahahaha.
no seriously tho i don’t wanna go. >:[
i’ve met lotsa new ~*~ friends ~*~ and i don’t wanna leave u. (◉◞౪◟◉‵)
but i have to go anyway HAHA man why am i getting all sappy w/e.
s’the new year so i’m not gonna give a fuck. ☆ヽ(ゝω・`) ノ

ubububuuuuuuu
don’t wanna leave my computER„,
i hope no one snoops in it and looks at my files while i’m at school
i collected lotsa nsfw this holiday
but ughhhhhhhhhhh
m’going to BED SO I CAN WAKE UP TOMORrow and i don’t wanna leeeeeeeeeeave
help i might be too attached to tumblr…………………….
or more to the people ON tumblr........................ ......... ...

anyway, school shit aside ( ps clarice gonna lend me nail polish remover tmr so i'm cool w that heh. ),
what is with the people on trollmegle? :/
no don't get me wrong, the people there are nice, but SOMETIMES, SOME people are just plain RUDE.

always complaining that they’ve seen you how many times. our fandom is so huge, you probably met two different johns, and then you come up to me and say “fuck stop coming to me” well I CAN’T HELP IT, IT’S RANDOM GENERATED.
If you want someone other than a John etc, YOU say something first then!
ugh piss me off so bad.
roleplaying is a damn hobby, stop saying i’m ooc or whatever, it’s trollmegle, calm the FUCK down. Different people roleplay different characters their OWN way, I’m sorry I don’t fit your damn headcanons. TELL ME WHAT’S WRONG WITH MY RPING, DON’T TELL ME OH YOU’RE SOOOOO OOC. TELL ME SOME POINTERS SINCE YOU’RE OBVIOUSLY BETTER THAN ME THEN.
even joan kena man. 

"omfg this one person i got was like

“GIVE ME A LITTLE FUCKING VARIETY”

and i totes would have changed who i was rping for them if they asked nicely gfbdhuf"

trollmegle is random generated, can't help who you're meeting. GET THAT IN YOUR HEAD omg. 

also the people on pesterchum, the people behind canon handles change all the time, don't come and say "lol we were friends yesterday." sorry I don't remember that cause I wasn't on yesterday, it was someone else.

ugh yeeeeeeeeeeee ok thas all for today i guess here have some rule 63 strider piccus of me. 

yeeeeeeeee ok bye!!! gonna 'sleep early' for today. (◡‿◡✿)

obligatory end of 2011 post

Candied pumpkins, sweet egg bread,
we love rising from the dead.

Carpals, tarsals, vertabrae,
that's us clicking on parade!

- Skeletons on Parade, Ludo

mhm hmm, hello!!

let's talk about 2011.

k well in a nutshell, i met lots and lots of new friends, dumped some old ones, sifted through them with a fine tooth comb, and i can safely say the friends i'm friends with now ( read: not blocked on twitter ) are pretty ok. BUT the friends i talk to on a daily basis ( read: no one from school lol ) are actually the coolest ones. Let's see... uhhhmm I've met, Charlie, Lené, and Ike. they're pretty cool. heh heh heh.
Lesseeeee uhhh hm. I met Charlie and Lene ( no stfu i'm not going to do the e thing. ):< )) on trollmegle, Charlie when i was being Eridan, and Lene when i was being Runawaystuck!John p kawaii hehehehe. Oh you should read the one with me and Charlie its p sexy heheheh.
Moving on to Ike tho, I met Stribabe on Pesterchum while I was on John's canon handle and I went to bug Strider to find out who he liked. :B . Seems p friendly tho HAHAHAHA no scratch that, he is really friendly.

[09:25:07] TG: .......

[09:25:11] TG: this is serious egbert

[09:25:19] EB: what?

[09:25:19] TG: you

[09:25:22] EB: what.

[09:25:25] TG: you love me like for real you

[09:25:28] TG: you LOVE

[09:25:28] TG: me

[09:25:51] EB: yes!! stop changing the subject matter back to this!

[09:27:22] TG: oh uh

[09:27:26] TG: alright well i might

[09:27:30] TG: i mean

[09:27:46] EB: what exactly do you mean?

[09:30:19] TG: uh

[09:30:29] TG: i might feel kind of sort of that way about you too

Same goes for Lene and Charlie tho heheheheheh. Charlie's the best tho she drew Dave in a tux for me cause i told her i like dave strider and suits. (◡‿◡✿)

Moving on to others, I'd like to thank all my twitter followers who haven't unfollowed me yet, thanks for putting up with my shit yo. My timeline forever about dicks and gay fictional characters.

Special Mentions:

Sandra, Clarice, Anita, Ni Jia, Winna, Miguel, Cassiopeia, Charlie, Lené and Ike.

Thanks for putting up with my shit bros, hahahahaha, last three, m'sorry I get really jealous and I'm p much p possessive sometimes, m'sorry if I uhhhhhh offend you or anything! I'm just a kid. It's hard, it's hard and nobody understands. It's hard and throbbing.

But yeah, thanks you guys! Hahahahaha look forward to me being a douche or w/e next year. (:

Anyway, yeah, I joined tumblr in uhhhh March? And i found out about homestuck through Dana and Tori omg they were the two first blogs I followed. i googled up homestuck, and at first i didn't read it cause it looked like shit and i was like "lol cannot be la..............." but it was mspa. I took a long time to finish it. in between i got caught up in harry potter and kpop, which are both very good fandoms too, but homestuck definitely has to be the best.

It really is the best fandom to me, it has good art, good cosplayers, good roleplayers, good music makers, voice actors, you name it we probably have it. it's also one of the most fun ones i've been in, and thanks to homestuck, i've dabbled in rp and i do like it quite alot. i mean i did in the kuroshitsuji board too, but that was pretty much crack rp. although sometimes this fandom has it's shitty moments, ( jfc i got insulted on my john rp on trollmegle cause i was too ooc? i got one of the best johns i know to look it over and he said it was fine, i rped later on with one of the best striders out there and they said i was perfect, so suck on it trollmegle anon. ) i still do love it very much. the popular artists and all that in our little fandom are actually pretty humble, and friendly too. even hussie is really friendly himself, did you know how many books he offered to sign just for this fandom? more than 200. they hardly pick any fights with anyone, and even if they do they just end up being ok again, and it'll just turn out to be a little ahem anon misunderstanding etc. this fandom also has like what, so many inside jokes, and we all understand each other.


these little heads on cylinders have actually made an impact on my life, it has made me a better artist, and roleplayer too. i might not be the best, but i improved darlings, and that's what i'm happy about.

so i'd like to give hussie, andrew hussie, creator of MSPaintAdventures a big hand, thank you, thank you really for making Homestuck, thank you.

not done yet hahahaha you suck.

this year was also a year that was literally a rollercoaster of emotions for me.
i cried over a boy for the first time, in public, and two boys actually came over asking if i was alright.
i cried a little over a girl cause i was jealous, and i didn't clearing things up with her before misunderstanding.
m'not saying anything, but these mistakes, encounters have made me, me. and i'm never gonna change for anyone.

[08:47:57] TG: im not going to do shit because someone wants me to
[08:48:11] TG: if it doesnt make me happy then im not going to put myself in an uncomfortably crappy situtation

also i'm pretty excited for school even if i haven't bought any books omg lmao, school starts tomorrow and i'm going with an empty bag.

oh well, that's me.


enjoy your new years' everyone!!
hugs and kisses xoxoxo ☆~(ゝω・`)ノ ♥ ♥ ♥