day 17 - i hate getting mad cause i know right after that i’m going to get sad and mopey.
hi
yep tru fax right there
a little after i got dumped like uncountable times on trollmegle ( ngl i felt like i did p ok today compared to yesterday, or this dave is just a fucking douche. ) i got really sad and started to be like:
"maybe i am a really shitty john/jake/roxy."
"maybe they don't want nsfw!"
"maybe i just suck."
and idk, i just feel really insecure about it. like, i feel like rping is one of the few good things i actually excel in, and if i lose this skill i'll just fall into this dark abyss of nothingness. :/
idk, maybe is just me being really lame and stupid. but idk, i just... can't help feeling that way.
is this like a gemini moodswing thing shit??? if it is then being a gemini sucks major horses' ass.
another point, i really really hope i haven't drifted too far from the people i met last year during the holidays, they were a really fun bunch of people to be around and, fuck, i really miss them so much.
like, i miss them possibly even more than 1/1. sighs.
i miss having actual friends that you can come clean to and talk about things you like together.
if you're one of those people, i love you, i really do.
last thing, ugh so what if i watch porn oh my god i have had it with people being all shocked, guys can watch girls cannot la? that's pretty sexist eh. :/
i guess i'm gonna go to bed now, school tomorrow, so goodnight! <3
"maybe i am a really shitty john/jake/roxy."
"maybe they don't want nsfw!"
"maybe i just suck."
and idk, i just feel really insecure about it. like, i feel like rping is one of the few good things i actually excel in, and if i lose this skill i'll just fall into this dark abyss of nothingness. :/
idk, maybe is just me being really lame and stupid. but idk, i just... can't help feeling that way.
is this like a gemini moodswing thing shit??? if it is then being a gemini sucks major horses' ass.
another point, i really really hope i haven't drifted too far from the people i met last year during the holidays, they were a really fun bunch of people to be around and, fuck, i really miss them so much.
like, i miss them possibly even more than 1/1. sighs.
i miss having actual friends that you can come clean to and talk about things you like together.
if you're one of those people, i love you, i really do.
last thing, ugh so what if i watch porn oh my god i have had it with people being all shocked, guys can watch girls cannot la? that's pretty sexist eh. :/
i guess i'm gonna go to bed now, school tomorrow, so goodnight! <3
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