Tuesday, 5 June 2012

14.

hello, long time no update haha.

well anyway, i think a lot of things have happened and obviously i'm too lazy to go through all of them so i guess i'll just... skim through?

lsp was on the first week of the june holidays! i was late on the first day then kena paiseh infront of everyone hahaha. but it was honestly quite okay and i enjoyed learning. i guess maybe it's because i concentrate better with lesser people in the class? whatever, i learned how to factorize properly that's the important part!!!!! hahhhhh.

so ya anyway, i lepak at home for a bit before my brain kick into gear again... i just felt like a loser y'know, like going back to lsp classes all. the sad thing here is that i actually can study, i just choose not to. so i got really really worried about the future like what am i going to do? i still haven't decided on whether i'm going to take art or sciences. will i pass my classes? i'm failing three classes as i type this. will i get accepted into the school i want to go in when i graduate? will i even pass my o's? what if i end up a deadbeat with a 8 - 10 job at a supermarket with a prom night baby and a drunkard for a husband? i know it's still a little too early to think of all this but i'm 14 now, and a friend of mine is already working for his family etc. i don't know, i just feel really really behind.

thus i decided to take a break from tumblring all that.. i really miss all my friends online but i don't think i know how to socialize properly in real life anymore, man.

i don't know, i'm just confused about a whole lot of things haha...

on to better things!

today was my 14th birthday!


i spent it over at diane and pauline's house with winna, miguel, haziqah and denise 'watching' glee haha. more like me and diane watching and flaming rachel berry while the others jamming in the room! but hey, it was fun anyway! we ate noodles and made a mess of the house but i finished half of season 1. man, rachel is just fucking dumb okay, finn brought her bowling and she asked "do i have to put my fingers into the holes (of the bowling ball)?" what the hell of course la!!!!!!!! ugh i just don't like her ok.

kurt is really really cute though omfg his face is really pale but he has rosy cheeks omfg omfg piss on me man. finn and kurt would actually make a cute couple though??? ok i'll shut up about glee now.

i got called to clementi for dinner by my parents around 5+ and i met with my childhood friend haaaaaaaaahhhhhh. he's fucking tall la!!!!! like 170 or taller. man why am i still so short!!

but yeah i think that's all for today? it's generally been an okay day but i can't help but point out the differences to myself haha.

goodnight and thanks for all the birthday wishes on my facebook/twitter/whatever.

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